Early life
Both my parents are direct descendants of ancient Hindu sages (under the gotras Vadula and Shrivatsa). Although my family infused my childhood with ancient Vedic practices and principles, I felt dissatisfied with the answers to my questions on existence. I believed in my life experiences more than the scriptures and hence spent most of my life pendulating between being atheist, an agnostic and seeker of the truth.
As a child, I could perceive energy and see things that weren’t normally spoken about. I can recall vivid dreams, prophetic visions and nightmares from my childhood. I was aware of consciousness but lost touch with the other dimensions as I grew up and re-adjusted myself to focus full-time on material existence. Growing up, I continued to have mystical experiences that would throw me into existential crises so I worked harder to be “normal”. In my pursuit of achieving conditioned-normalcy, I ended up living an inauthentic life for the most part.
In this childhood photo, I was dressed as Murugan, a starseed deity associated with the Third Eye (Pineal Gland/Ajna Chakra). Murugan is also associated with Krittika (Pleiades) and ancient Kumari Kandam (Lemuria).
Inner Work
My journey into understanding consciousness officially began around 2015 when I had a spontaneous kundalini awakening or ‘disturbance’. I spent the following years dedicating myself to spiritual development, exploring various spiritual paths without any attachment or restrictions. I tried several healing modalities prescribed by various consciousness teachers to “FIX” myself – inner-child work, shadow work, sound healing, art therapy, somatic movement therapy, yogasanas, qi-gong, shamanic journeying, automatic writing, tarot and oracle readings etc. I explored my dreams/astral experiences and got adept at interpreting the meaning behind the symbology in my non-physical adventures.
In the last several years, gurus/guides from the other dimensions started appearing to me – reminding me of my true nature – the nature of pure source consciousness that is common to all of us. Through these interactions, I realized that I was identified with ‘maya’ or the ‘illusion’ that made me think that I needed “fixing”. I realized that I was not broken and that I was the conscious awareness in the background witnessing my mind that had gotten out of control. My life changed when I decided to stop “healing” my manomaya kosha. Instead of healing, controlling or manipulating myself into a healed state, I allow myself to witness the discomfort that arises through everyday life happenings by NOT dissociating from my body. This is the practice of embodied presence by staying awake and conscious. ACTING from this state of embodied surrender to the TRUTH within is what I facilitate in my classes and workshops now.
Besides having had mystical schooling experiences, I have also had the grace and pleasure of learning from physically incarnated teachers in this lifetime who have greatly helped me understand my own energy system. I studied with Nervous System teacher Irene Lyon for two years to “thaw” my burnt out and dysregulated nervous system. I studied animal communication with Sumathi Neelamegham and energy healing modalities from Kimberly Sherry and Nancy Rebecca, a highly revered and experienced shaman/traditional medicine woman. I also learn and practice the ancient Tamil martial arts form called Mei Padam and Karlakattai with Karthik Vilwanathan who is a teacher with Jothi Silambam Kshakthiriya Gurukulam.